I was not the best freshman. I was a mess, who didn't really know what I was doing, was unprepared for college, and was struggling with my mental health in ways that I hadn't even been able to understand. I was struggling in my classes, failing, and thinking about dropping out because I had no idea what I was doing. I dropped almost all of my creative projects at the time and focused entirely on trying to piece my grades together. I had just lost my friends of four years and I was completely burnt out. In short, the cards were stacked against me and I was flailing. After that disastrous first year and a half, I tried harder and got the hang of my college courses. I actually needed to get the hang of the projects, I started doing personal projects again. I went back to art museums even to try and get more inspiration.
The messages behind my art is about my own struggles as someone who is queer and neurodivergent. The feeling of not belonging, or the fears over the future that we all face. I also make art about fun or interesting concepts that I enjoy, like fantasy games, bright light, and paying other interesting artists homages. I want people to understand me, and art is the only way I have found people will listen. I wish people listened more. It's hard to live on what many people are seeing as the brink of collapse while having just started your life. Sometimes it seems like there is no way to go but down.
My ultimate goal, and what I am currently doing, is digital illustration, interactive exhibits, and game design. I would consider myself a multimedia artist with a concentration on digital art, design, and interaction. I find that I rubberband between serious art that comments on my struggle of being a human, dealing with life, being born in an unsure world, and sillier art that deals with current pop culture, concepts that I personally find amusing, and fun character designs or ideas. Each piece that is part of the portfolio represents either of these sides. Sometimes they are mixed together. I try to make my suffering either a little amusing or a good piece of art. I want to focus on becoming a more practiced artist, and I want to gain the tools to be able to make good pieces of art. No matter what happens I will keep trying to better myself as an artist, and make more interactive and interesting pieces. Although I have posted 10 pieces for consideration, I do hope that you look at my other posted projects to get a full understanding of what I am doing here. This website will update with time, so if you like what I do you are more than welcome to come back if you want. This website was coded by me and uploaded to Neocities.